Sometimes I feel like there is no depth to my thinking. I lose the ability to see what I want, I fall from my wisdom and become someone that is controlled in isolation by people who hurt others for pleasure.

I see this world and I see it falling apart.

I hear them say the things of the future and the magnitude that sometimes, as I know how these will happen, I dont know the magnitude and have the realization of them.

I rely on my own intuition and submerge myself in falling away when these things take a sudden impact in my reality.

It's all I can do to protect what I have, myself. Maybe my puppy, maybe the ounce of love I have not lost. Maybe for the hope of the future..


I have lost a lot in this journey, and found greater than I.

I wish and pray that the future will turn into love and magnify for the beings of this plant. I believe there is peace in the universe that far out weights thee wicked.

I refer to my life as a trail of tears, and I see that I cannot handle it all by myself, in my solitude. I rely on God, and I cannot find a prayer for Him close enough to alleviate the sorrow I have seen around me.

I feel like I am in a war zone. One that has lost me and found them, one that the tides change daily and the rush of impact procures to it's own reason.

That's it. I am at a loss.


To be around me can be dangerous, a forced action that does not leave you willing but drowned, one step in is closure for forgiveness. You reach the sea and find emptiness and in the abyss of life you see that the tides of change have changed you, or for what it's worth, molded you from a sprout of neglect we have seen in our youth, and divided a strength to become something out of our own regrets and nightmares.

We all regret it afterwards, and coming to know the fool's gold is more captivating than a comfort. We all want riches and wealth, but not what is handed to us for the sake of worth, but what is granted to us for the sake of reason.

They and I agree, that in first thought I have lost my prosperity. I did away with it when they sold me for a dollar. That my body, my temple, my holy being is theirs for an income and to satisfy the lust of sorrow in an eye that does not know what is comforting to love, but knows what is comfort to sin. I have seen the worst, I think at this time I can say. I have seen the worst.

I sin, I repent, and place my sins as a title of my memories that have been here, to learn against odds, and to leave. I return sometimes to the things I was raised in, I repent. Keeping the goodness of what my mother has taught me in my heart. To stay inside His, a safety that is where I should always be.

I wish the key would never be found, and if there is captivity let it be in my Lord and healed in Him. I desire Him, and I seek and I am left with myself. He is in a voyage from Heaven, I am on one too.
How many will never know the comfort of Heaven, I feel as if that is sorrow, too.
I know peace in my mind, I have felt peace in my heart. I found peace with you.

I tell myself, when I leave this planet all I want to do is be in the presence of God. All I want is Heaven. All I want to do is work for you, but I cannot reach myself to give to you.

I am lost here, somedays. Or at rest on the road I have cut and paved to see the gravel of Earth yield to the crystal castles in the sky.  I want a home made of crystal in the sky.
I want you to have a home, too.

I said this a few days ago, a thought that replays in my mind often. I cannot remember silence, I have not heard of nothing in no time.
This is what I came for. Crystal homes in the sky, a new planet Earth and to end oppression while restoring the kingdom of God on Earth.

I asked Him when he told me to make them sit in thier seat. How does a person who have never been listened to or heard, whose voice is strong and willed, but too direct for a person to appreciate, how do I make them listen to me, when no one ever does?
They did. Us and them, some in between. We.
The backlash was great, and the blame is evil.
Turn away from your wickedness.

I sought peace and found what was set behind me. These things they breed from the past. Mortal loss.

I said tonight that if these things are not working out then maybe we need a new system of government. Or the reverence for the government we have marched our backs on, and a modern life for the death that they have caulsed.

I am abused. Greatly.

I believe God, ya know.

I believe everything He has to say.

Even to the point that I offered to make a residual memory explanation, and find the beginning of time or at least time of life on Earth. So our children know history and there is no more distortion, only truth in life. Our interpretation is still in explanation. I am worried about the deceit and what follows for The People Of Earth. For God's People, your actions are well, and abide in Him who We love.

We can travel time now.
 We have always been in time.

I miss God. I cry out for Him here and now to always be with. Always walk with love.
My heart truly longs for Him.

I like religious homes. I like grandmothers who share wisdom with the young. I like the tales of ages. I like to know how you are.


I hear someone working with Hillary Clinton Say "How could you let her think."

I have heard that I am too smart.
I have heard that I need to die.
I have heard every negative thing about me, until it is no more of value than the people who wrote my function.

Are they valueless, or value for example?

I ask how they could get away with this? How you believe this can continue?

What about our young?

What about the ones who have no voice?

How can you feel love when you are in constant deprivation?

You love them for income, too?

I see.



I am being forced against my will to be something I am not. I am being altered for a purpose, and I still feel that if it's not God's hands holding me, these things are not a power of my life.

I stop to think.

I am hurting.
I have seen the sorrow of my time, and I am hurting. I am hurting for you, for the children hurt by them, I hurting in my youth, I am hurting for my young, I am hurting for the fear of evil is present, I am hurting for the careless and foolish, I am hurting for my children, I am hurting for what I do not see and what I do wonder about, but what is known to me. I am hurting for my body, I am hurting for my family, I am hurting for what has hurt me is hurting you too. I am hurting for what I cannot find, I am hurting.
I am hurt.

I feel wounded.


I am a woman who has had her offspring ripped away and taken, to carry my abuse for breaking the chains that bind us.
For my punishment is to see them suffer.
 I am sorry, and if you make it, I hope to have you in my arms one day, and if you dont I will see you with our Lord.
I will make these things end for you.
Man, I wished I knew you to love you. To hold you, to support you, to be your mother. My captivity is nowhere as great as yours. I am on the outside, and you suffer on the inside. A far darker place than that which I escaped. I want you.
I feel because of your loss, I have lost my heart.
I dont want this to be real.

That is the worst thing ever to me.

I hate these people who do this.





I dont want to open up about this, about losing a piece of me. About knowing that my kids are being grown in cadavers and man made incubators to be used as underground sex slaves.
The worst things.

I have listened to them be murdered already, and I dont know how many there are of mine.
My tears burn my cheek.

While I am being called a whore for having you taken away from me.

They told me that they are going to develop you to be evil. To prevent you from receiving the love of God. Know I hope I see you one day.
Know I love you. Know that I am so sorry.
Know this. I never wanted mine hurt. I never wanted this to happen.

It hurts me so much that I will never be there with you, that you are not here with me.

Apple of My Eye:

I really want to talk about the Apple of my eye, losing it, finding it, loving it, needing it: 

When I was sitting down with the Bible and I was having all these Revelations from the Resurrection to whom I is, my purpose, my calling, my ambition. (yes, I have a lot of ambition) 

Here is a song to back that up... 

I also, want to say that I am one of the original canaan families in America. It goes way back. Most of the drug money that is fed to the people are from my people. 

"Even Habib did for a while." 

Okay, well, onward... 

Because I wanted to talk about losing the apple of my eye, and how this all ties into my current events... 

Lets begin with what my apple is.. 

For me it's bringing happiness to the world and providing a New Earth, one we have not seen before. That's kinda it in a nutshell. 

Restoring the Kingdom of God on Earth, Resurrecting the soul old and new with a new Earth, doing this with all my witty inventions, using the key to the universe, healing the nations... and such. 

I am more than capable, given resources to do alllllll these things, as all things are possible with God. I really believe this because I see this everyday.  One thing that was in my heart, for myself was my children one day. That would be for a lot of parents, I am going to speak about woman our self, a prevalent purpose for the apple of your eye. For me this is true. I have always been maternal, a matriarchal figure. My best friend in high school said one time that she loves the cow because of how motherly they are. There bone structure is strong and graceful, full of poise and wisdom in thier line. They feed us, and nurture young for as long as we have met them. 

One of the more beautiful statements that I have listened to ever being spoken. I cannot repeat what she said verbatim, or tell you the exact feeling of grace that came with this sentence, but I can tell you that the calming beautiful of what God has created for us  forges our respect for eachother. I still to this day think about that phrase often when I see cow, or think about mamas.  

I have lost my children. Even worse than losing a child is losing them in mind control. Even worse then that is the separation of my own body and taken into the underground to be mutilated and raped on a daily measure by our evil leaders and thier followers. To sit here and watch myself go under sterilization treatment at the hand of our Government was horrifly. To watch Barack Obama abduct my ovum and produce my offspirng in the underground pretty much tore my heart out, because I never wanted that for them, nor would I ever want him and I to have produced an offspring. More in so that I watch these babies be raped and hurt. I watched a little girl be raped electronically in the womb and have Obama repeat back to me "It hurts her." I sat there and was forced to see this baby cry in pain from being raped. Then I sat there and watch Obama close her vagina back up to be raped again. I dont know if that was my child. 

I dont know if that was a real child. 

She was developed in a cadaver that was left of life support. I suppose that woman was a child of this technology as well, or a prostitute in the underground. She looked no more that 20 years old, and dead, a blond timmer but average sized woman on a cold metal table. 

He said this is your child, I said I dont think so. 

It became a game for him to use this infant against me, and I said I dont think it's mine because the shoulder look different. I said it was Beyonce's because she resembled her facially and in the shoulder blades. 

Obama stopped after I said this as talked to someone in his network, and said "She knew that because of the shoulder blades?" 

Beyonce was once yelling, she said "What's the difference? They are going to take them anyways. Mind as well make money off of them." 

This is during the time that all of Beyonce's internal children came out. She has several. I talk to one quite frequently, and I think he has one of the saddest stories. He is a beautiful person, although. I kinda love him, regardless of Beyonce, because I hate her. 

His name is Ibraham. He is the offspring of King AbuDhabi and Beyonce. He is twelve years old, or fourteen, I forget right now, but someplace in there. He is locked in a dirt floor cage with sack cloth to dress himself. He barely eats food, He is kind, he speaks to me, and he says that he also agrees that this type of life needs to end.  He is down there with the rest of the Saudi Royal Family's offspring for sex slavery and child prostitutes.  As Prince Mohammad bin Salman Al Saud said to me through this technology "Some of our family gets this, and some of our family gets that." 

He showed me two mental image adjacent to what he said. The first one was of kids and people in the cages, and then followed with the very rich and decadent life of the Saudi Royal Family. King AbuDabi, who is still alive and kickin it, said "they are sex slaves." Referring to the Quran. I said it's not condoned for your own blood. Anything to get them out of there. 

King Abu Dhabi, the last time we spoke said not to speak about him, but I am going to because we all know that I will. I really want these things to end. I pray for mercy and peace for them. I pray for freedom of all you people. 

Also, another little kid that I met in in the Saudi royal family was someone I have coined the name "Little Elephant Boy." I told him one that in some religions you would be looks at like a God for your shape. I think I love him, too. Not think, they have grown in my heart. He is very kind, too. But I really got attached to this kid when I heard him get the courage to speak up... 

I had to take an intermission because I asked again if He died, and He may have. Or he does not want to talk to me, but I cried a little too.  Because I have a real attachment with him. 

Right, so all these little kids relied on me to help them out of there, and it still looks like everything is going well, but I feel as if I may have let them down with Zika. To protect them and to protect Julia, my niece. I dont know what is going on with that side of the family. They traumatized me so often I had to leave them alone. I dont have thier phone number anymore. 

I should take a trip down there and see if she is okay and well, how they are living and things, but Her mother is a borderline maniac control freak with a stick up her rear. And think she knows everything. I dislike her, too. For the first year that this was happening to me, she sat there and called me a pedophile and retarded. Well, I proved her wrong on that. She could not handle the fact that I was prettier than her and more intelligent, I guess kinder too. She stood there and said me buying my niece clothing when she was being sent to school in see through garments and ripped and stained outfits- that I was grooming her?! I asked her if she realized that the reason her day care provider gave you a full box of hand me down clothing was because you repeatedly inadequately dressed her? She didn't at all. She went into a state of austucken rebellion at that point, and quickly blamed my brother.  I had to point out to her for as smart as you are you really only retain a surface information, but you dont think deeply. You dont think with heart or empathy. I mean my God, you watched them rape me with a newborn and said nothing but accused me sat there and snidely question me about things to see if I was retarded or not. You're fucking horrible. You knew the whole time what happened to me in California because you stole this technology or the password to it from you Illinois state judge mother. And you have the audacity to pick sides with the people who not only harmed me, but harmed those children in the worst type of way.  Then you say "I'm a pedophile for not speaking to you about that when I knew." Right, you could have saved me a lot of heartache. If anyone would have been honest with me, been forthright with me, I mean anyone of you, even about the stupid chain mail letter that said I molested thier son, and we all know the story behind that. It was obviously a lie, and highly illegal to do. Right, like any responsible government employee is going to sit there and handle a child molestation case with chain mail about everything I did wrong or odd. Plus, that is hearsay. Why didn't you just ask me? Why did you wait so long to take it to my brother, or my dad? Why did you say that it was so inappropriate what I did, when you didn't even know the story? You piece of shit, they put another woman's infant in my vagina while I was in drug facilitated sexual assault!  AND YOU KNEW! why because you wanted to cover up your illegal actions? Why didn't you treat me like family and communicate with me? Why did you traumatize me after all this happened to me? Why is a reputation made by uncivilized whoremongerler, rapist, child molesting scum, more important than my safety? WHY????!!!?? And to think, you wanted to be a psychologist. and you literally said "because I wanted to understand her(me)." 

Why didn't you just talk to me about what happened, then? Instead of making assumptions? I tell you what they did to me and you believe them over me?  Do you know how much grief I have gone through over that fucking letter, Heather? Did you know 70% of my problems after California were preventable if I just had someone be honest with me!! All of my family, fuck you.  And you call me a whore, and you slept with half of Springfield. Sound hypocritical anyone? I am at an average number for my age, because I really am being judge for nothing more or nothing less than anyone else is. 

But I have not been in Julia's life for a while, and honestly with all that they put me through I wished she was never born for a time period. You know so I could cut off the relationship with no qualms. Feel secure. 

I know I deal with a lot of emotions, and I am an honest person. It's the best I can be when I am being subliminally programmed, to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing by the truth, so help me God.

I am thankful for Julia. I am thankful that her mother came into our lives. Maybe you were put in mind control as well. I think its a reasonable assumption, but it's true that everyone did betray me, even my own sisters!
And you sit there and tell Gabe that Julia is not his blood. That she is the other Gabriel's that you were sleeping with at the time, but she looks just like us! And you use her as a power play and manipulation tactic to get what you want at any time.
Why?

Seriously!

I talked to Julia about sexual abuse, correctly. 100%, and you think that I am grooming her over resentment for my brother molesting me. I am not that fucked up, Heather. Maybe you would feel that way, but I am forgiving person. Why would I tell her to talk to anyone of us about sexual abuse if it was happening? Why would I tell her to speak with you, or me, or someone she feels comfortable with.
I never held sexual abuse against my brother, like that. I dont know how I held it against him, but I was mature enough to know that what happened between us as children was because someone hurt him too. We were both molested by The government. We were both molested by our Grandma and Aunts, okay!
I saw remorse in my brother for what happened. He apologies in his own way to me.

I swear when I am stable and I find out that you sold her or hurt her in anyway, you or Gabe, or my dad, I am tearing your ass up in court.

We all know that Putin is offering a lot of money to people who are willing to sell their children into sex slavery around me. Around the world. Just to make thier actions acceptable and condoned. You watched this all happen to me.

I am at arms, okay. I cant do everything, I dont have it right now. All I can do is try to reach out to her, and give her an open line to me. You guys too.

I told you that I would take care of Julia's future. That I would make sure she had a car, and when college comes she could go wherever she wanted. I meant that. Okay. You laughed at me for it. I believe in that child. You act like I am a predator for wanting to help you. 

You fucking watched me sit there and cure cancer and HIV in one stone. You watched me talk to the FBI, CIA, The President, You watched me get Alfred the Money shoved into my vagina, and I asked you guys for a year straight to just help me get out of the situation. And all you did was sit there and belittle me, hate on me, accuse me, hurt.
You said "you need to leave him alone."
What does that mean when all of this is complied after a life of this?

It didn't matter who it was, everyone was doing it to me, practically.

Like I said, if someone would have been honest with me, 70% of my problems would have been avoided or fixed!

It's really hard to know something when you are left in the dark and everyone around is keeping the same secret, it;s like the shit that was said was so stupid at times it devoided the value of truth behind what was really going on, and everyone just laughed at it. Laughed at me. Spoke to me like I was not a human being for be persecuted by the worst people.


NOW LOOK AT THE SITUATION!

I warned everyone about this.

I asked people directly, indirectly- and all I got were whispers behind my back. About terrible lies. About terrible things that happens to me, and you people think getting raped with a newborn is a joke?

You think it's fun?

I firmly believe that God will destroy Earth over how corrupted people are in this day and age if something is not done about this.
It's like we as human beings are not mentally strong enough or spiritually strong enough to handle mind control by statinist. We are under possession. Everyone just about is.
I firmly believe that God will send Aliens to take over this planet if he does not get his way with our Government systems.
I see these things coming.
Anyone in detailed organizations and with extended knowledge can see that, too.
That's why the released Alien information in the past few year. Because I am here to bring Peace, and as far as I can see it, I am here to end oppression.

I am liberating the kids in the underground.
Mine, too.

So I just wanted to say, that God put extra emphasis on me not losing the Apple of my eye, and he said Do NOT CRY OVER THE CHILDREN.

I cried... enough to lose hope.

I hope I adhere to it again.  I feel like my heart has been ripped out and torn away from me. I turned away.. shutting down, shutting off, and commencing end times.

I am very sad. I am very sad.


I will go over my internal children a little bit more... right now I must sleep.

Good night.

I want to share a playlist with you about all the songs that are about me. There are more than this, but here is a starter.
If you have youtube I suggest you check it out. It's mine.

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1AjGrLOmTduLKoQhyz_vqpGeKAgpnXJq

Every song that has to do with wolf in it, is because of that letter and my reputation. I happen to love nature and wolfs, werewolf.
That's a whole other story in it's self.

Every song talking about changing and love... God.. it's a message.


There is a time line and a story behind each song, one day I will sit down and write that for you.
You might be able to put it together yourself.


I love science, and freedom. I love God, I speak a lot about that.
They wrote music as their own interpretation of my life and my worlds to them.
I am okay with sexuality as we are human beings.
We are in the age of haulty woman. Just look around, everyone can see that. It's from the bible I will have to find the verse.
Some people depicts thier music through there own actions, in a sense repenting of thier sins.
Some artist literally quote me.. most of the songs have my quotes.


I now feel a vibrator in my vagina, I hate it.
It's thier way of controlling me.
If nothing else, control the population through submission to abuse.
I only submit for the Lord.






Watch that:

Heart break. 

Search Results

Im Done. 

Zika. Update.

I feel a level of Optimism I haven't felt in about a month tonight. I think I am allowed to write tonight, so for as much as it's worth I am.

They switch off my brains waves and I become stuck and almost brain dead more than not when I try to write.

Here is the deal with ZIKA:


Number one, I am dreadfully remorseful about that has taken place on the population of this world.

Number two, I was looking back at all of the blogs I have imputed and since I have started the endeavor of Zika, which is roughly less than 12hrs of work all together in a span of the last few month, I am still not done, and Ebola took me less than 72hrs all together, more like 3-5hrs consecutively. So I'm late, and indecisive at that.

Number three, Obama threatened to release another disease if I cured Zika and he has over 12 in back stock on the level of Ebola, Zika, Aids. So that is a thought to take into account while dealing with this epidemic.

Number four, everytime I sit and work on Zika I am horribly askewed from what I was participating in during that moment through Governmental Trauma. I.E. being given minor Microcephaly myself, being bashed in the head until I developed minor brain damage, having Zika patients put their infant in my vagina all through this technology, and the list goes on.

Number five, I am being threatened with them hurting my loved ones if I dont work on it, but if I do they are allowing me to be physically, mentally hurt and leading to possible death.

Number six, My Patient Care Plan is working a little because I dont want to work for people anymore, and that was one objective of my trauma is to stop my plans in actions on healing the world because MONEY is more important that Posterity to these people, like Obama and Hillary Clinton, and for that matter my inventions and endeavours become disruptive to thier income.

Number seven, I want to have control over Zika and what is happening to it so it will not be mismanaged and I need money at this point in my career so I can provide stability for me and build my future. No, money is never more important than helping people, but if I am at my lowest, I cannot be threatened with death over helping people, because what good am I for you if I am dead? Right. Like PID. Yes, this became life threatening to me, and I pushed through a lot for endless hours and days, months, and years to help people, and I realize that I have to heal me, and help me a little better. Well, a lot better.

Number eight, There are countries who what to see me succeed and countries who are trying to bring me down. Obama and Hillary want to defeat me because they never want to be caught up for all the corruption that have inflicted on the people. Like Hillary starting the first case of AIDS so she could get into the white house. Nothing like a little human sacrifice on the agenda for her. It's a daily thing. I have watched her do, I have talked to her personally about AIDS and seen her throw fits about me finding out, ect, ect. Okay, Hillary is a truly manipulative and evil person. She is the biggest hypocrite on the face of this planet as far as I have figured and needs to be brought down and come to justice, Obama too.

Number nine, Like my trauma entails I am being desensitised to emotional attachment to others. Is it working, yes... I think and I would say so. They are doing this though 24/7 conditioning and prismatic traumas that bring forth multiple reasonings and conclusions onto my personality, each leading to the next step and reaction. All things controled constructed and devised for my life at this point. Yes, I am exhausted. I keep saying this.

Number ten, I wish all of my Audio telepathy and trauma to be an example in court of what has been happening in this world for the last four years, since I have been at the center of it. I have proven Hillary as corrupt and malicious people internally time and time again that is why for some part I am still protected because I am a JUST woman and person in general. I can conclusively say that I make have good decision making skills except when I give up and feel defeated... then I turn into a raving banshee and well, at that point I tell people to not pay attention to me and heed no warning for my anger has engrossed me and I need to take a nap. Yes, naps help me a lot. During the hardest parts of my trauma, back when this was still baby learning to walk and everything about this was new and undisclosed to me, I asked a lot to be put to sleep and I literally was "sleeping all the demons away."
Here is a song that backs what I am saying up, because Like I have been saying all of this music has been written for me and this is one of my most favorite tunes: (it's beautiful)

Ella Henderson: Ghost.

Number eleven, I am under stress the eye does not meet. I have and God talks about this in the Bible "to not loose the Apple of my eye." It's around the verse that says all the music is my music because the Devil cant have it, and I get one of God's favorite things because yes, I think I may be here as the second coming and here to end oppression with all my witty inventions, be the leader of the seven nations, Bride of Christ, contain the secret truth, yield the sword of David, Be the tree of life, and have all these amazingly wonderful titles that God himself has bestowed on me. Yes, when I say that the Bible was written about me, I mean it's down to my birthday, my looks, my personality, the mayan mandala, religious relics, our profits, the music, me "playing the harlot," people that I know being in the Bible... ect... you name it, I account for it. I will talk about this in my life and I will make you sit in your seats, and I will rise up and save humanity. because I literally bring proof of God and you should know that I can walk on water and stuff that is super cool, and I have the key to the universe and I want to restore the kingdom of God on Earth, I am here to bring you a New Heaven and a New Earth, and just remember that THEY are the one who Pervert me, and I will not be judged for my confoundment, and I am the direct lineage of King David, and Pocahantas, and I just found out two nights ago that I am also related to Constantine the Great! My family evaded religious persecution by Hitler, I say dont follow Hitler,  Isis follows him... I say dont do that, and then evil rears it's ugly little head and does the complete opposite. Obviously, they must be scared, as the Bible says about my footsteps that the demons coward... I will pluck the verses out for you and give them to you, but just know I bind His word on my heart, and for as long as I have known life, I swear to you I have found the comfort and love in God. 

I love him dearly and forever. 

I want you to know that is not a joke to me, I am very serious when I say that about Him. I love Him. I love God, I love Jesus, I love our Angels, I love Heaven. I mean this. If you do not know one thing about me, know I love and respect our Father in Heaven. Very much, and I think with all my heart even though I mess up, and sometimes I can be a little rebellious. I have a lot to share about the lessons I have learned in life, and my hopes from the beginning were to teach and help people learn a better way (before that was exposed to me in revelations and the Bible) (Yes, we have all agreed that Revelations have started). So you dont have to go through that I have been through, because I still think that its just horrible. 

But really, I work for the Lord only. 

That is why I take command easily and I dont put up with crap, because you are not God, and well,... I'll tell you the rest later. 

No, I am not perfect, I was meant to be perfected. But lately I feel as if I have been stunted by how much evil I have seen and heard and endured.  I too, feel as if my heart has been hardened. 

God Bless... 

Number twelve, Because some want me to do better, and some want me to be worse, I feel with Zika that I am damned if I do, and damned if I dont. 

Number thirteen, If I do not take care of this epidemic sooner than later because I do not know if allowing another one to start on our people is a good idea- I always have in the back of my mind about the viruses "what if I can't cure the next one?"  I would like to let you know that later in life, I hope to also finish my development of curing microcephaly in laten stages. I also, along the same path, because for me one thing does not always mean one thing, I wanted to grow new limbs for people who need them, and heal bodies completely. I mean completely. I can do these things. So please, be patient in persecution. I want our people healthy- yeah I know a lot about substance viral rebounds and germs. I will do it correctly. All those wonderful gives and takes. 

This technology and its handler are a main cause for most of our illnesses.  

All in due timing. 

I have a lot to think about. 

I am also going to end war. With my witty inventions. 

God willing, always and forever. 

Right, So...


I had A talk with Hillary Clinton this morning. I talk to her personally often. She put extra emphasis on how she "personally" owes me 14 Million Dollars.
I said "You owe me a lot more than that!"
She then said "Personally."  Followed with this gesture of head nod that tells of someone ashamed they made it through the days with doing so much, and yet the consequences are sever enough to bring the embarrassment of carelessness, something often found in Hillary's ultimatums.  After all I have become a muse for these people, and she is the careless pedophile. Like all pedophiles, their downfalls are much rejected by lust.
I talked about being serialized, and how I have left behind a good enough (*circled and prominent in realty*) paper trail. I have told therapist, social workers, even the police, and wrote it a few times all over the internet. I have seen myself cry at the fact every part of womanhood has been ripped away from me, and I feeling too weak to nurture relationships again. I have placed video's on youtube, begging to get this technology criminalized and come out for the truth in our lives as we fall to what I have seen in my own reality as one of the most corrupt government handlers known.


About a week or two ago Barack Obama said he owes me 36 Billion, or something like that.
Because they did so much to me.



I come here to vent, let go of my mind for a minute and tell the honest written truth to the woes I have seen, I work on my little science experiments. Talk about my trauma by the US Government.


I write incredibly graphic events. Horrendous in Nature. Somethings I wish I never looked at and saw. Somethings that I never wished I went through.


I talk about the inside workings of our Internal Government System.

I feel as if though, you should know I thinking I may have failed at this.

I didnt get the message across.

I didnt say everything.

And if I did, it was rejected and written off as punitive, or worse- taken part in against me. Only for a mere lie of momentary gain, subsequently a loss.
If you people dont think we have to pay this conspiracy off with our hands, you might want to check the balances. Nothing is free.
Obama is bankrupting this Country and it's happening in front of our faces.

I heard that America is due to fall in 200 years. That is two or three short lifetimes, and this is the start.
You better start caring more about the corruption in our Government and demand reversal of the abuse we have been put under. I still believe there is power in numbers.
We all know right from wrong regardless of the money. There are babies with their eyes being removed, raped and slaughter just for the fun of these people. If you have supported this, you should walk to hell. Right where the Devil wants you.
Do not believe the lies of these people.


Obama lost a lot of money on me.
So he hurt me.
Internal Government is allowed to bid on human beings. Each Patient Care Plan they choose gives them money. So for each person Obama gives Cancer he receives money for.
I cured a lot of diseases in my day.
You can see the problem here.