Maybe you should write about how you have sympathy for us.

This comes from Madonna's Son.

I think, because this is probably one of the hardest things in the world to come to terms with- Madonna says "I have four."
"Two in Saudi Arabia, one down there."
She pauses for a second with a hesitancy and says "One in Quebec. Canada." She circles the word Canada in my mind."


I have seen the one in America, she is a person who was raised in the White House with other girls like her. They are housed and locked in cages as slaves since the day they were born. A perfect woman, or what media tells us what a perfect body is.

She is half black, and half Madonna. Even has a gap in between her teeth.

So I say, "What is they make mine turn out evil?"

I just asked Madonna's son what his name is and someone says "Isik."
Then he says "No, no, no- Abraham." "We are all named Abraham."

I was talking to him and I asked him "why dont you want to die?"

I cant remember what he said...
Wait, Number two said "His subconscious says he loves them too much to leave."
Referring to being a pedophile.

"He said because of them.." He points to the other people down there.
"They are family."

He asked me why I have sympathy for him, too.

I told him because "you were raised in this stuff. I said God would, too."
I continue and say "This has to be one of the hardest environments to grow up in."

Madonna says "I think so, too."

He brings up a picture of Madonna and asks "Do I love her?.. a little."

He says "no one loves me."
Referring to no one love you/me.

My subconscious says "Well, that's what the Bible says."
I says "You do not know love."
And it's true.

Someone tunes in and says "I am mad at you for letting them do that." Referring to beheading Ibraham.
"He would have told everything."

I wish he was still alive. I wish people would calm down and shut up. I wish that this was not true.

Abraham shows me an image of a girl. She looks like him and Madonna. He says "sister."
I ask because for some reason I still think they lie to me, and I ask "Why is she so small?"  The time frame of age from him to me, and from madonna to fame did not make sense.
He says "She is retard."

"half of them are."
"correct."
"or like Ibraham."

Ibraham was really smart. I would say so.

Back to what he was saying.

He says "I drive this." And shows me an image of a Mercedes.
"I have income."
"I live in a house."
"I have a dog."
"I watch your shows here in Saudi Arabia."

He then continues and says "I have one daughter out there. Her mother will not let me see her, because she knows what I do."
*(I am rereading and he says 'did')*

They just show me Ibrahams decapitated head. They are raping his dead body.
They slaughtered him.


So, why after an innocent child is hurt and all of this is compounded do I have sympathy for them. Well, because they were raised in this environment. Like I have sympathy for Kim Kardashian because she was a legalized child prostitute like me. Even if she did turn out to be a little evil, these things develop easily in those environments, and there really is no escape sometimes. Especially when you are a child from day one taken advantage of.

Abraham shows me a picture of when he was 12 and said "I escaped once."
I said "Well, that's why they let you go."
He says "I said that, too. He says otherwise." I dont know who he is referring to.

They said I was just put back on the terrorist watch list because I told Abraham that I loved him when he said that no one loves him, and then I said Jesus does, too.  "God has sympathy for you."
He says "with all of this?" then he shows me pictures of murders and things of the underground.

Same reason, from day one.

I really feel like I would never lose kindness for these people because I think about how mine could be through all of this.
And I am sad.

If I had a child down there, and I could not find them for 15 years, or help them out of there, and they developed to be as these people are, I would embrace them too when I got to them. I would love them just them same as the day they were taken from me. I would hope they wanted health. Regardless of thier actions, you were forced to develop to be demented.

I was raised by pedophiles. I was raised by prostitutes. I was raised by murderers. Some of the hardest in America.

I developed from you, too. In a way.

That is why God said that The Daughter of His People would come from Cannan. Because he loves these people, too.
Plus, I am slightly harder, but kind at the same time then some other people.

I just wish in my heart, that I would subsidise thier income with a new world, and people will choose health and healing, happiness over this sorrow.

It is so sad.

I cant tell you how many time I have been one the floor crying about how much this stuff hurts all of me.
A LOT.

Look, you have to go back to day one to help these people.

The line is that maybe some will never want to change.


With Madonna I think her trauma was very hard and intense, but short period of time where she was hurt very badly. Then given freedom and money to suppress feelings of abuse, to confuse and control.


You do not chose the game, the game chooses you. I am telling you.