Friday, August 26, 2016

Whatever

I  have been through some serious stuff. I wonder if this will ever change for me? I'm sitting at a park right now, talking on my phone.   I wonder how long this will last? Sometimes I stayed of the statements. How long things will last. Speaking on my phone is really easy. Thanks iPhone! Maybe this is the best way to type for me through  Verbal ozone.  I was walking through a neighborhood and my patient care plan protocol was for me to notice all of the houses. Each house was adorable each house with the white picket fence. They're green lawns and their dogs and their people  that occupy those houses all undermine control.
 I think I quit my job today because of severe abuse. I don't know how much drama one person is supposed to handle from everybody. Where is the line of what is called fair? How do you draw this  in an inconsistent form. There's so much going to found me and around me I find it hard to believe that people could you such a evil. I suppose it's not that hard to choose this month evil when this evil surprising you with money. I said a little while ago that income is the new form of oppression.  Why do I have to be the one that is persecute it? I wonder when these things will end again or if they ever will. Right now my severe abuse is having my bowel movements and closer to renew my anus.  It's uncomfortable there's no reason for it I don't like it. How can somebody have that much control over another human being and people think that it's acceptable. I still wonder when you things are going to change.
 It's annoying being electronically raped. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes aroused by it physically. Sometimes I wish that that wasn't true. I see the physical exhaustion in my body.  It hit on the head through this technology as if it's acceptable because for I compared human to the original form a caveman expression that we have devised as a reason for their actions or at least unconscious knowledge that is not there like a caveman I hit their self; head.
 I find myself not having much bright ideas right now. I feel a little bit Defeated.  I'm being euthanized I guess that would make me feel defeated. But not having this closer and I were to go through this much stress just to be treated fairly it's more of a disgruntled nature of my mind then something I want to deal with. I dislike a lot of thing rite now.
 This is what I am forming these are my words. I get frustrated like the caveman and sitting on my head when I don't excel further. When would I want to speak is not clear enough or it's not within dignity to be held as value. For what I have seen around me is that  it is respectable to sell your children. Respectable people slave humans.
 I guess this is not what I have been taught. It's a really hard thing to accomplish my head but I have been taught and what I've been shown where I've been lead. I've been through a lot every day it's something more than what it was. Found out two days ago That I was so unconsciously as a child to one of the worst pedophiles in the world.
 I call him number two because I still don't know his name. I know my family works with them.  I can tell you that because of what he did to me because my drama a woman is correct and is it something over us and I understanding that I have neglected to realize for a little while because they're my drama I'm literally traumatized to the point that I cannot remember things. Some things that I have his values his key sequences that navigated my daily life I've been vanishing. Christopher times in and he says you found out how to use this well referring to my iPhone. I'm glad that I purchased this phone. It does everything that I needed to and what I don't know that I need I guess I'll figure out later in regards to a phone.  The man in the dump truck that's driving by says this needs to break in regards to my phone. Because I get income for this .it's rather convenient being able to speak and type. Even more convenient if these have auto command and I can actually had in commas and periods. Now I can write an entire world of articles the touch of my voice.  So now I can say the things that I want to be heard and I don't have to worry about typing. That's a gratitude I would like to think. Or trying to make it acceptable for some to be for mongering And for some others cannot this is how the world works they tell me that I know me.  I've had a lot of influences, a lot of incomplete thoughts. I don't think people know the whole picture yet. I guess you have to be careful with the words that you speak.  For to say you know whole picture is almost impossible. But to get a broad understanding and a clear view of my point in being it's not. I just have to express myself.
Should I be paid for the damages that have been brought against me?sometimes I'm a risk taker.  I recited my life is crazy ass. I have told you some of my wells some of the things that I've seen I have wrote in time frames of things that I have gone through.  It's hard stuff you know where is my sympathy. Like the story is not as it seems because it's not being told and honesty. In honesty not an honesty.  I'm worried that my niece is in the same sex abuse ring that I have been in. So today I must go to the cops. This may cost me time and mental clinic but honestly I need  SSI appointment so I'll do that. The little bit I will walk back to my house or where I'm staying.  I'm dehydrated and I'm tired I would really like to fall sleep on this grass and soak up some rays. I would really like to relax. I got some pizza I'm down to my last $80. 

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