There's a lot of words that I wish that I knew in order to express and so I said I'm going to buy I have an advance dictionary but really it's not that advanced so I'm going to buy a theological dictionary in advance dictionary and learn all these words that I need to know to write as well because the complexity of this is just above my skill set right now in language to convey to you and it's quite unfortunate but I really do But it's dinner my mind is under control and you know it's quite hard to go around stuff when you've been a product of this year entire life