Maybe you should write about how you have sympathy for us.

This comes from Madonna's Son.

I think, because this is probably one of the hardest things in the world to come to terms with- Madonna says "I have four."
"Two in Saudi Arabia, one down there."
She pauses for a second with a hesitancy and says "One in Quebec. Canada." She circles the word Canada in my mind."


I have seen the one in America, she is a person who was raised in the White House with other girls like her. They are housed and locked in cages as slaves since the day they were born. A perfect woman, or what media tells us what a perfect body is.

She is half black, and half Madonna. Even has a gap in between her teeth.

So I say, "What is they make mine turn out evil?"

I just asked Madonna's son what his name is and someone says "Isik."
Then he says "No, no, no- Abraham." "We are all named Abraham."

I was talking to him and I asked him "why dont you want to die?"

I cant remember what he said...
Wait, Number two said "His subconscious says he loves them too much to leave."
Referring to being a pedophile.

"He said because of them.." He points to the other people down there.
"They are family."

He asked me why I have sympathy for him, too.

I told him because "you were raised in this stuff. I said God would, too."
I continue and say "This has to be one of the hardest environments to grow up in."

Madonna says "I think so, too."

He brings up a picture of Madonna and asks "Do I love her?.. a little."

He says "no one loves me."
Referring to no one love you/me.

My subconscious says "Well, that's what the Bible says."
I says "You do not know love."
And it's true.

Someone tunes in and says "I am mad at you for letting them do that." Referring to beheading Ibraham.
"He would have told everything."

I wish he was still alive. I wish people would calm down and shut up. I wish that this was not true.

Abraham shows me an image of a girl. She looks like him and Madonna. He says "sister."
I ask because for some reason I still think they lie to me, and I ask "Why is she so small?"  The time frame of age from him to me, and from madonna to fame did not make sense.
He says "She is retard."

"half of them are."
"correct."
"or like Ibraham."

Ibraham was really smart. I would say so.

Back to what he was saying.

He says "I drive this." And shows me an image of a Mercedes.
"I have income."
"I live in a house."
"I have a dog."
"I watch your shows here in Saudi Arabia."

He then continues and says "I have one daughter out there. Her mother will not let me see her, because she knows what I do."
*(I am rereading and he says 'did')*

They just show me Ibrahams decapitated head. They are raping his dead body.
They slaughtered him.


So, why after an innocent child is hurt and all of this is compounded do I have sympathy for them. Well, because they were raised in this environment. Like I have sympathy for Kim Kardashian because she was a legalized child prostitute like me. Even if she did turn out to be a little evil, these things develop easily in those environments, and there really is no escape sometimes. Especially when you are a child from day one taken advantage of.

Abraham shows me a picture of when he was 12 and said "I escaped once."
I said "Well, that's why they let you go."
He says "I said that, too. He says otherwise." I dont know who he is referring to.

They said I was just put back on the terrorist watch list because I told Abraham that I loved him when he said that no one loves him, and then I said Jesus does, too.  "God has sympathy for you."
He says "with all of this?" then he shows me pictures of murders and things of the underground.

Same reason, from day one.

I really feel like I would never lose kindness for these people because I think about how mine could be through all of this.
And I am sad.

If I had a child down there, and I could not find them for 15 years, or help them out of there, and they developed to be as these people are, I would embrace them too when I got to them. I would love them just them same as the day they were taken from me. I would hope they wanted health. Regardless of thier actions, you were forced to develop to be demented.

I was raised by pedophiles. I was raised by prostitutes. I was raised by murderers. Some of the hardest in America.

I developed from you, too. In a way.

That is why God said that The Daughter of His People would come from Cannan. Because he loves these people, too.
Plus, I am slightly harder, but kind at the same time then some other people.

I just wish in my heart, that I would subsidise thier income with a new world, and people will choose health and healing, happiness over this sorrow.

It is so sad.

I cant tell you how many time I have been one the floor crying about how much this stuff hurts all of me.
A LOT.

Look, you have to go back to day one to help these people.

The line is that maybe some will never want to change.


With Madonna I think her trauma was very hard and intense, but short period of time where she was hurt very badly. Then given freedom and money to suppress feelings of abuse, to confuse and control.


You do not chose the game, the game chooses you. I am telling you.

When I curbed the Ebola Epidemic... Today's life.

Today Hillary Clinton was mad that people want the same server abuse for her as I receive.   Meaning that a bat must personally go into her vagina, forcefully. Sometimes it happens to me under rohypnol and sometimes it happens to me through this technology. More often than not.

So, today's activities were waking up, eating a smoothie, and then I changed into my one piece bathing suit and decided to catch some rays outside on a blanket. Later I took a few pictures naked of my body and vagina for records of my body modifications and just because I wanted to. I realized that while I was trying to be a very conservative woman I lost a lost of evidence about my health. So, I do that now.

I have been receiving body modification everyday, and they are keeping water on my body. I gave myself a massage to move the water off of me, but something that has never happened to me began. I started to carry the water on the upper half of my body. My bra strap left indentations, and could feel it in my fingers and arms. It kinda freaked me out. Still. This means my heart, liver, or some vital organ is not working properly. I suffer from swelling in my legs in general, but this has been so bad that I am having a hard time being mobile again. I know I am still fighting PID, because either the Governments instigate my bacterial infection through this technology, or yes, as this has become a whole cultural phenomenon, I am still being raped under the intoxication of rohypnol, ketamine, or GHB. To the point that I cant eat at a restaurant without it being dosed to me. That is the power of mind control.

So, today I sat outside and let the sun work it out of my body. I wanted to tan my legs once in my life so I took that as an opportunity to check that off my list of things to do while I am still youthful. I feel a LOT better. Thanks nature.

Everyone that saw me in my bathing suit today received $2,000 from our unused income account. I believe this was an external transaction.

Hillary comes on after she finds out the news about her severe abuse treatment. I have to say that yesterday she also lost the internal election for the next president, which I am excited about.

It dwindled down to her yelling "Of course she is smarter than me, anyone who can cure Ebola in 38 minutes without being educated..."

She stopped... and said "we calculated it at 38 minutes."

I replied "I said 72 hours, to be fair."

I went on my Fb page today, and I looked back on my memories, and I just wanted to post this little information about what I was doing this time two years ago. I thought It was identical to today's relations. This is why I became so famous. Not only was it Ebola, but you should check my resume. I wish I could see my internal technology report, it's extensive. Plus, you know... I hate my oppression and fought hard for my freedom. Still, I think. 

Hillary said someplace in the middle of the dialogue that "I made a mistake having ISIS view her." 

This springs from me saying that at 23 years old I was not ready to run the world. I was given a lot of responsibilities to help people, and as I used my internal and external podium to do these things, I preached about my abuse and my thoughts. I worked so hard on everything I could think of since being an heiress to the second coming. I did what I could, when I could, and to the best of my abilities for the first 3 years this started for me. When I say you should check out my resume, I mean it. I should too, seeing as how I have lost half of my thoughts while I have been under 24/7 mind control. 

This last year has been harder on my due to my failing health.  

While I was laying out on the lawn today, Prince William says "I agree, I was unable to run the world at 23.  No one is. (even with all of that)." 

"(all of that)" referring to being raised as a king. *insert intuitive designed communication, telepathic understanding in visual dialogue.* 

I asked him if he knew about "all of that?" I was referring this time around to all of the sexual corruption and abuse that takes place in the world. The worst of the worst, ya know.

He said "I did, I was aware of it." 

That is all we talked about. I got the feeling that England is the one who was in the internal court system yesterday and leveling the playing grounds about what has been happening in America/World under Obama and with Hillary marching right along. 

So Hillary and I got into another argument during the times she invaded my privacy today. It really ended with me saying that she needs to be imprisoned and for thinking that her actions just because of the position she holds should be condoned. 

It ended with her saying "I do eat human meat." Then onward to saying "I like fetuses. I will have one tonight." 

Someone else was talking to her, and I could not make out what they said, but Hillary replied "Yes, they are still alive." 

So I am woken up by Madonna's internal child raping a dead 2-3-4 year old girl on top of me. I have had a few conversations with him before. He is in with the kids of the underground in Saudi Arabia. You know little elephant boy, and Ibraham. 

He shows me her vagina, because I say "No, you're not." 

Then he shows me her face. He says "A Chaldean."  

So he tells me that "I like them fresh. today." 

He circles the word "2day" in my visual scape. 

He just slapped me on my rear as I am typing this. To let me know that to him I am a prostitute. I still feel bad for him, being raised and tortured in the underground.  He looks a lot like Madonna. 

These are the effects of serious sexual abuse, they corrupt the human heart and hurt the body. 

As he starts raping this baby girl, he says in his broken english "make love" 

Then he puts his penis all the way inside of her until it reaches the cervix. I guess this is why I didn't think he was with a child at first, because adult vaginas and child vagina are different. I could tell after the  image, but it really sunk in when I felt her as a kid. 

They do this to isolate sexual attractions that I have and adhere my normalcy to serious sexual abuse i.e. pedophila in order to liken me to being a pedophile. Like I have an adamantcy about "making love" as a sexual desire, so being put in mind control and feeling the traumatizers emotional complexity and being exposed to it breaks down your willingness to fend these things off, and eventually you could end up like them, or completely not. I asked if this works on everyone, because I am scared for my mental well being and a man answered "Some do not." I think I have been traumatized so much, I am freaked out a little. It gives me hope that some people will never be like this, even in mind control, but I have been in this type of abuse so often in the past three years I wonder if this will ever stop. 

It's mind control. It's a very intricate process and I will sit down one day and explain in detail how my programming has happened. 

So then he finishes and he gets Ibraham and forces him to do the same thing to her. In about a minute he says "I came." and screams a little. Then he pushes him and says "keep going." 

He cries. 

So I get up and wipe this from my mind. While I was writing about Hillary Clinton they reminded me about this. 

I asked Ibraham, who is Beyonce's and Kind Abudabi offspring, How he speaks English? He says "I speak it through this technology." 

I have heard so many times from ISIS members how they have poor English, but they are fairly fluent with this technology. 

I ask about Little Elepahant Boy, and ask again if he is still alive. Madonna's son says "Alive." and shows me the mental image of the word "Alive" with a circle, then the screen moves to a different mental image and it says "In Heaven."  Circles and with a check mark in the center. 

I love these people regardless. I feel like a piece of me is cut from the same cloth as them. 

Someone said "King Abudabi died, too. He's gone." After they spoke about Little Elephant Boy. 

I want to cry. 

Everytime I say something about them, they make it worse, but I really feel like it's necessary to tell people about the abuse in our nation's governments so they will end. 

God says "it's a sin to not speak of these things." 

I cannot figure out the fine line about what to say, when to say it, and how to bring recompassing and revision to the abuse that these people have endured. I just wish for these things to end. 

Something I speak about, and some I do not. 

So after I came from outside and laying on the ground for about four hours straight. I took a nap under the sun. They went at it again. 

This time I could feel a person being decapitated. It was that child's mother. The energy level was not as high as it has been when I have felt a person be decapitated, but I still felt her pain. 

While I was laying outside I got sometime to be able to pray. I said a little prayer for that little girl who was stolen and sold taken into the underground. 

Right now I am being electronically raped again. 

I guess her mother heard, and said "at least she prayed for her." That is what I was told. I did not hear her or speak to her. 

So I think this was Shakir who decapitated her, I said and called him Habibi because I kept losing the ability to remember his name, and Habibi means all my heart, or prostitute in Saudi Arabia. I was called Habibi in Kirksville Missouri but some people related to the royal family. Then he offered to marry me, and it's been Habibi ever since. 

I declined, but yeah. 

I think they just killed Ibraham. 

So, the mother watched them kill her daughter, and watched the whole time I was hooked up to her. 

I am done talking for the evening. 

I really hope there is peace soon. 

"They just killed Ibraham. They said they wouldnt for her." 

Someone just said "Beyonce is crying." 

Madonna's son just said "I am not dying for him." 

I repeat back to him that. He says "correct." 

Now they are shoving something inside my throat. 

He says "cancer." 

I ask him "why are you so mad?" just now. 

He says "I am in mind control, too." 

8:21pm

Well, I am angry tonight, and I just dont think I want to help anymore, but since I cant be let go..


why you force me?


I am getting my shoulders stretched and having arthritis developed. I had really strong shoulders before this.

So because I cant get what I want and I refuse to be strictly evil, I give up.


Good bye Earth.

You have seen your last leg. 

My new favorite song.

This is real.

Why dont you just let me be a normal human?

My body, my rights. 

Woman- "She was a legalized child prostitute!?" 

Governemnt employee-"That's not untrue, its just not as bad as people thought it was... they just let her masterbate a lot." 


Me- "wait a second, here! So, a child who has multiple pleasure care plans, is being sold into child pornography internationally, possibly has had more abuse under the indignation of handles than you want to release, is not that bad?! I want to investigate myself! I would have never been one of the cases pulled into court to end that program if it wasnt example worthy, okay! You people lie. Then why was I on a no treatment list since childhood. Because I was told it was in case I caught something and there could be no evidence! It's not like my videos were not being sold to the talaban! Its not like my sexual abuse was not made into patient care plans to traumatize other children with! It's not like you haven't change the story multiple times. At first you were going to try and cover the entire thing up, then it was I never had a single pleasure care plan! Then you minimize the sexual abuse I have gone through to make it acceptable to have to continue traumatizing me and raping me!" 

Pedophiles need to get out of office! 


This is a shame! 

4:01 pm thursday March 17! 


Election 2016

I was just told that the elections this year are rigged in Hillary Clinton's favor.

Demand a recount, make sure the ballots in are all areas are double checked and accounted for.

Sometimes I feel like there is no depth to my thinking. I lose the ability to see what I want, I fall from my wisdom and become someone that is controlled in isolation by people who hurt others for pleasure.

I see this world and I see it falling apart.

I hear them say the things of the future and the magnitude that sometimes, as I know how these will happen, I dont know the magnitude and have the realization of them.

I rely on my own intuition and submerge myself in falling away when these things take a sudden impact in my reality.

It's all I can do to protect what I have, myself. Maybe my puppy, maybe the ounce of love I have not lost. Maybe for the hope of the future..


I have lost a lot in this journey, and found greater than I.

I wish and pray that the future will turn into love and magnify for the beings of this plant. I believe there is peace in the universe that far out weights thee wicked.

I refer to my life as a trail of tears, and I see that I cannot handle it all by myself, in my solitude. I rely on God, and I cannot find a prayer for Him close enough to alleviate the sorrow I have seen around me.

I feel like I am in a war zone. One that has lost me and found them, one that the tides change daily and the rush of impact procures to it's own reason.

That's it. I am at a loss.


To be around me can be dangerous, a forced action that does not leave you willing but drowned, one step in is closure for forgiveness. You reach the sea and find emptiness and in the abyss of life you see that the tides of change have changed you, or for what it's worth, molded you from a sprout of neglect we have seen in our youth, and divided a strength to become something out of our own regrets and nightmares.

We all regret it afterwards, and coming to know the fool's gold is more captivating than a comfort. We all want riches and wealth, but not what is handed to us for the sake of worth, but what is granted to us for the sake of reason.

They and I agree, that in first thought I have lost my prosperity. I did away with it when they sold me for a dollar. That my body, my temple, my holy being is theirs for an income and to satisfy the lust of sorrow in an eye that does not know what is comforting to love, but knows what is comfort to sin. I have seen the worst, I think at this time I can say. I have seen the worst.

I sin, I repent, and place my sins as a title of my memories that have been here, to learn against odds, and to leave. I return sometimes to the things I was raised in, I repent. Keeping the goodness of what my mother has taught me in my heart. To stay inside His, a safety that is where I should always be.

I wish the key would never be found, and if there is captivity let it be in my Lord and healed in Him. I desire Him, and I seek and I am left with myself. He is in a voyage from Heaven, I am on one too.
How many will never know the comfort of Heaven, I feel as if that is sorrow, too.
I know peace in my mind, I have felt peace in my heart. I found peace with you.

I tell myself, when I leave this planet all I want to do is be in the presence of God. All I want is Heaven. All I want to do is work for you, but I cannot reach myself to give to you.

I am lost here, somedays. Or at rest on the road I have cut and paved to see the gravel of Earth yield to the crystal castles in the sky.  I want a home made of crystal in the sky.
I want you to have a home, too.

I said this a few days ago, a thought that replays in my mind often. I cannot remember silence, I have not heard of nothing in no time.
This is what I came for. Crystal homes in the sky, a new planet Earth and to end oppression while restoring the kingdom of God on Earth.

I asked Him when he told me to make them sit in thier seat. How does a person who have never been listened to or heard, whose voice is strong and willed, but too direct for a person to appreciate, how do I make them listen to me, when no one ever does?
They did. Us and them, some in between. We.
The backlash was great, and the blame is evil.
Turn away from your wickedness.

I sought peace and found what was set behind me. These things they breed from the past. Mortal loss.

I said tonight that if these things are not working out then maybe we need a new system of government. Or the reverence for the government we have marched our backs on, and a modern life for the death that they have caulsed.

I am abused. Greatly.

I believe God, ya know.

I believe everything He has to say.

Even to the point that I offered to make a residual memory explanation, and find the beginning of time or at least time of life on Earth. So our children know history and there is no more distortion, only truth in life. Our interpretation is still in explanation. I am worried about the deceit and what follows for The People Of Earth. For God's People, your actions are well, and abide in Him who We love.

We can travel time now.
 We have always been in time.

I miss God. I cry out for Him here and now to always be with. Always walk with love.
My heart truly longs for Him.

I like religious homes. I like grandmothers who share wisdom with the young. I like the tales of ages. I like to know how you are.


I hear someone working with Hillary Clinton Say "How could you let her think."

I have heard that I am too smart.
I have heard that I need to die.
I have heard every negative thing about me, until it is no more of value than the people who wrote my function.

Are they valueless, or value for example?

I ask how they could get away with this? How you believe this can continue?

What about our young?

What about the ones who have no voice?

How can you feel love when you are in constant deprivation?

You love them for income, too?

I see.



I am being forced against my will to be something I am not. I am being altered for a purpose, and I still feel that if it's not God's hands holding me, these things are not a power of my life.

I stop to think.

I am hurting.
I have seen the sorrow of my time, and I am hurting. I am hurting for you, for the children hurt by them, I hurting in my youth, I am hurting for my young, I am hurting for the fear of evil is present, I am hurting for the careless and foolish, I am hurting for my children, I am hurting for what I do not see and what I do wonder about, but what is known to me. I am hurting for my body, I am hurting for my family, I am hurting for what has hurt me is hurting you too. I am hurting for what I cannot find, I am hurting.
I am hurt.

I feel wounded.


I am a woman who has had her offspring ripped away and taken, to carry my abuse for breaking the chains that bind us.
For my punishment is to see them suffer.
 I am sorry, and if you make it, I hope to have you in my arms one day, and if you dont I will see you with our Lord.
I will make these things end for you.
Man, I wished I knew you to love you. To hold you, to support you, to be your mother. My captivity is nowhere as great as yours. I am on the outside, and you suffer on the inside. A far darker place than that which I escaped. I want you.
I feel because of your loss, I have lost my heart.
I dont want this to be real.

That is the worst thing ever to me.

I hate these people who do this.





I dont want to open up about this, about losing a piece of me. About knowing that my kids are being grown in cadavers and man made incubators to be used as underground sex slaves.
The worst things.

I have listened to them be murdered already, and I dont know how many there are of mine.
My tears burn my cheek.

While I am being called a whore for having you taken away from me.

They told me that they are going to develop you to be evil. To prevent you from receiving the love of God. Know I hope I see you one day.
Know I love you. Know that I am so sorry.
Know this. I never wanted mine hurt. I never wanted this to happen.

It hurts me so much that I will never be there with you, that you are not here with me.