So, I am surrounded by very creepy people. There is not much talk about.

uch a contrived world. tle freeddom at this point. Do intimidate herdo speak low to her.

I guess I shold discribe what it is like to be seen at the right side of virture.or
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I have very lit



All of these patient care plans being exsecuted are annoying to say the least. "Lets, walk in and follow these sequences of paths, and devise situations where grace may have an adverse reaction, guys. And everyone do it at once. "



This is what my life has been surrounded by for the last four year consistantly.

I feel that they are making it seem like all of this is needed or it's my fault.

I am needed to be controled, but I have never been free.

Nothing needs this much over involvment and attention unless the story is justifide by actions and consistancy in actions. Long term consistant results.



They say the rich will be pedophiles regaurdless.
he stand I took was to
They say that I am at loss.

They say so much shit. The confoundment is amazing. to the

e
Amazment has already been found.


Let say that I am excersing my American Rights and Authority. That the stand I took was too credible, too aware, too contingent in the rehlm of real life abuse, too honest. I am now decived as a human being.
zelie de
deciv
The problem we face is not I. For speaking tuth in life is never a blame. But I am an opinion, I am an idea, I am a controvercy; I am a lie.



They said today that
I was prominate. does this


I am prominate, I reorganize.


I am now a decieve, prominate lie.
 Or a prominate lie decieved.
or a prominate decived lie.


What
does this mean to me?


Not much.


The
se questions would have been deeper than regularly thought,  but this is where we have been led tonight.


into.
prominate deception of lies.
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YOURE CORRECT IN SAYING THESE BLOGS ARE A ROUGH DRAFT.



I would say this.

People wont read that because of how bad the grammar is. Possible.


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I figure there is something better than this. The reality is sever horrible. I dont get get why this is the end.


Whatever, cant type because my cursor keeps being rerouted.

So... the daily bid on my actions how




The VMA's were action packed. I hope Kanye and Kim have found freedom, and not the sufferage of selling thier children.


Right, I would say that I have been perverted, but I am not a pervert.

een.

Truth be told we all know a lot about me.
From what the daily bid on my actions are, to if I will suceed.

and overly scs, but as a child
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I heard this thing that people say.
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Like how is there so much money and now we are just getting some.
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If this is the real thing, these things will come to an end.
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Well somrthing in between. \



How about I be raunchy and overly scrutinized for as a child I cried.
 a rol.l in love
Like how Eminem pissed on me in a tub as a young teen or child, maybe even 11 or 12.stingo th
ruined
How I was a million dollar child prostitue at the age of two. ve thee wishes.r
Internal/External/. I do not know. I made a lot of money off my ass. None to be exact. It was made off of me.

Like how I was in love with Vladimir Putin for three whole evenings.
And now I cant seem to not love a necrophilia. It's what ruined myol thieroing toutelationship.

I do dislove him, though. I do hate the necrophile. They all are.

Its a strange world, mind control. I mean i always side with Genie when she says that he can never make anyone fall in love, but you have 3 wishes.tectioionection sight of Satn in the
 n

How about Beyonce fisting her child all the way to the award show for being too loose. Here's the kicker. Everyone knew. Just about.
.

If you're going to be evil there will never be another Beyonce.


What if we become Nieve. We are, and fast. There is no protectction in the sight of Satan.


I guess, stating this is too much abuse for the people before it ever started wasnt good enough

n God.





You're right, There is nothing greater than God.

Boycott Beyonce

 I'm thinking about school today and I know that's going to be a difficult road to take. Last time I was enrolled in school just about everything horrible in the world happened. But besides that at least I get to endeavor into things that I will enjoy. Like bio chemistry or physics in general. They said that I won't be able to work for NASA and sucks because I would really like to build some new technology and fly to the moon or wherever. I guess I could go work in the oncology field.  I kind of want to make medicine I kind of want to aids. I kind of want to end the Zika epedemic. I still think that I should definitely fight the government. I still think what is happening is probably one of the most ridiculous ideological things in the world. I find myself sometimes almost to green that one of these things are meant to be that these orders are just the way the man and that is just what we have to deal with or what not.
There's nothing very bright coming out of my mind lately there's no.  Nothing is being synthesized nothing elegant is being brought out of me right now. There's no deep breath Mattick meaning to my thoughts is no persuasion is no memories.  A few days before the VMAs I found out that I was raped have a child as a child and it's pretty horrifying because I think that it may have fucked with my cognition of life. I feel betrayed  and maybe trail have a long long long road but now I feel as though I just feel like why just why. Sometimes through it all I just wish that I would've never gotten body modifications like a girl out to be so I could grow up to be something better than what I am I feel like I got held back a little bit from BM .  A lot of people of my life like in my situation would probably just want to go find something abettors them and maybe critical thinking and writing would be a good idea for me. Although I'm not really sure what I could do with that in the long run. I definitely like engineering I definitely would like to endeavor on those I definitely want to excel beyond what is happening to me I think that it's pretty intense .  I mean I could going to philosophy but I feel like my language has been so stumped lately that it's just something that's hard for me to go around. I still want to build new houses and bring you know levitation to the forefront of our development. It wouldn't be hard In cosecrenicities.  I guess I could like talk to you guys about everything that happens on a daily basis. Like why people choose to say that this is just the way of the world anything should happen or how there is a literal illuminati sacrifice and Satanic worship that's going on in the world that's devastating our population and I'm pretty sure like the dissection of man's wisdom is declining.


 Well I think that I got us to have a store in completion the whole story all the little stories every story everything that I've seen everything that I've heard and hope that maybe people will choose something that's better I don't know. My life is pretty fucking want to stray. I'm heading on a fucking necrophile now I don't want to have sex with Lil Wayne.  Eminem looks like fuck and he got hit in the face with a bat every day and does too much heroin. I told me not to talk about my family. The worst pedophile in America used to write me as a trial because my grandma sold her out hit me to him. I fucking have lost a lot. I'm fat my breath stinks I'm fucking corrupt it so a couple night before the VMAs they also told me that 13 countries are good and 13 countries are bad 13 countries that are bad have my kids and those 13 children were sacrificed in front of the public during the VMAs through the side and whatever. This is a problem I'll be in  that's the problem about being a writer when the words just don't meet your brain like literally they can't even reach the tip of my dong I just literally have no vocabulary anymore. They did this once with the word mustard where I could not remember the word mustard as an example to say well she obviously knows what mustard is. I surprised how well my conterol actually works because all of us would've never of happened if there wasn't a dangle mind control none of this could've been pulled off was was happening to me if the illuminati and like saying I was that control the world were not involved because nobody would rape that much but nobody would rape that like nope no doubt this isn't this is fucking this is going way too far.

Deliver the thing like why




Again, unedited and in real time.

I attract money like its going out of style. 

I've decided I am just going to cure Zika. Or do something good in the world. 

Whatever

I  have been through some serious stuff. I wonder if this will ever change for me? I'm sitting at a park right now, talking on my phone.   I wonder how long this will last? Sometimes I stayed of the statements. How long things will last. Speaking on my phone is really easy. Thanks iPhone! Maybe this is the best way to type for me through  Verbal ozone.  I was walking through a neighborhood and my patient care plan protocol was for me to notice all of the houses. Each house was adorable each house with the white picket fence. They're green lawns and their dogs and their people  that occupy those houses all undermine control.
 I think I quit my job today because of severe abuse. I don't know how much drama one person is supposed to handle from everybody. Where is the line of what is called fair? How do you draw this  in an inconsistent form. There's so much going to found me and around me I find it hard to believe that people could you such a evil. I suppose it's not that hard to choose this month evil when this evil surprising you with money. I said a little while ago that income is the new form of oppression.  Why do I have to be the one that is persecute it? I wonder when these things will end again or if they ever will. Right now my severe abuse is having my bowel movements and closer to renew my anus.  It's uncomfortable there's no reason for it I don't like it. How can somebody have that much control over another human being and people think that it's acceptable. I still wonder when you things are going to change.
 It's annoying being electronically raped. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes aroused by it physically. Sometimes I wish that that wasn't true. I see the physical exhaustion in my body.  It hit on the head through this technology as if it's acceptable because for I compared human to the original form a caveman expression that we have devised as a reason for their actions or at least unconscious knowledge that is not there like a caveman I hit their self; head.
 I find myself not having much bright ideas right now. I feel a little bit Defeated.  I'm being euthanized I guess that would make me feel defeated. But not having this closer and I were to go through this much stress just to be treated fairly it's more of a disgruntled nature of my mind then something I want to deal with. I dislike a lot of thing rite now.
 This is what I am forming these are my words. I get frustrated like the caveman and sitting on my head when I don't excel further. When would I want to speak is not clear enough or it's not within dignity to be held as value. For what I have seen around me is that  it is respectable to sell your children. Respectable people slave humans.
 I guess this is not what I have been taught. It's a really hard thing to accomplish my head but I have been taught and what I've been shown where I've been lead. I've been through a lot every day it's something more than what it was. Found out two days ago That I was so unconsciously as a child to one of the worst pedophiles in the world.
 I call him number two because I still don't know his name. I know my family works with them.  I can tell you that because of what he did to me because my drama a woman is correct and is it something over us and I understanding that I have neglected to realize for a little while because they're my drama I'm literally traumatized to the point that I cannot remember things. Some things that I have his values his key sequences that navigated my daily life I've been vanishing. Christopher times in and he says you found out how to use this well referring to my iPhone. I'm glad that I purchased this phone. It does everything that I needed to and what I don't know that I need I guess I'll figure out later in regards to a phone.  The man in the dump truck that's driving by says this needs to break in regards to my phone. Because I get income for this .it's rather convenient being able to speak and type. Even more convenient if these have auto command and I can actually had in commas and periods. Now I can write an entire world of articles the touch of my voice.  So now I can say the things that I want to be heard and I don't have to worry about typing. That's a gratitude I would like to think. Or trying to make it acceptable for some to be for mongering And for some others cannot this is how the world works they tell me that I know me.  I've had a lot of influences, a lot of incomplete thoughts. I don't think people know the whole picture yet. I guess you have to be careful with the words that you speak.  For to say you know whole picture is almost impossible. But to get a broad understanding and a clear view of my point in being it's not. I just have to express myself.
Should I be paid for the damages that have been brought against me?sometimes I'm a risk taker.  I recited my life is crazy ass. I have told you some of my wells some of the things that I've seen I have wrote in time frames of things that I have gone through.  It's hard stuff you know where is my sympathy. Like the story is not as it seems because it's not being told and honesty. In honesty not an honesty.  I'm worried that my niece is in the same sex abuse ring that I have been in. So today I must go to the cops. This may cost me time and mental clinic but honestly I need  SSI appointment so I'll do that. The little bit I will walk back to my house or where I'm staying.  I'm dehydrated and I'm tired I would really like to fall sleep on this grass and soak up some rays. I would really like to relax. I got some pizza I'm down to my last $80. 

Kim kardashian is a Pedophile

I had to give YOUTUBE a litte more background about how I have interaction with KIM, but our "rasin butts" tell it all.
(Thats a part of my trauma.)

 

I have to tell the whole truth, nothing but the truth, so help us God. 

World's best cook:

I'll put that on my list of things to do.



All I can say is that I have just started, and many of times I come out as a world class chef already.

No, I do not like to be insulted.

Yes, I can cook and I cook very well.  I HAVE A FEW KNOWN  FOLLO
I guess,  JACOB ROTHSCHILD, just promised everyone that they can live like millionaires, and subsiquently give up the Earth. Because that is what is about to happen.

 God wins the way he wants, or everyone looses.

I found this online. I started listening to it after I was browsing Facebook and found it's page. I knew about this movie a  long while ago, I just forgot about it and tucked it away in the back of my mind until today.



I was going over just about every act of victimization and abuse I have endured in my short life here. It started to make me cry.
How I was molested by my grandmother and aunts, possibly my uncle, maybe my mother as well, my brother for sure. How as a child I was sold into sex slavery, and as an adult I am growing up to be the world worst rape victim; I am up there with a handful of people at least. How I remember now, pieces of events that have led to what has now been exposed to me.  How as a child I had things happen to me. Like when I kept waking up thinking my hair had been tied all night, but I didnt put in a pony tail. You know when you have a pony tail in and take it down and you hair falls weightlessly off your scalp... It happened to me a few times. How I was a virgin prostitute. How I have been pronounced dead over 300 times through this technology.  How what I have been traumatized with has been fact, and fact to find my way back to these events and tell about what it is like being from one of the leading CIA crime families in America
All these clues are leading to my reality.  How I lived below the poverty line, but I was well over a million dollar child prostitute. How I went to school with holes in my shoes and clothes. How I was forced to be sodomized through mind control as a young child. How I have had direct imagery transfers in the most perverse versions forced fed to me while I was in elementary school, middle, and high school. How I would go to school and be bullied each day for being different or poor.   How I have had been forced to have abortions, I count as miscarriages through it all. How I came in contact with the Barzaghis and having been raped while a woman was slaughtered next to me, and having her infant be birthed and him being forcefully put in my vagina and both of us raped together. How half of the drug population in Santa Rosa California was said to have had sex with me while under date rape drugs. How I have been placed on a no treatment list and am being euthanized. How I have been raped with animals. How El Champo bought me in California under rohyponl. I dont know what he did to me.  How Alfred the chimp was put in my vagina under Obama and another CIA pedophile operative, who subsequently I was involved with. How I have been raped in a pool full of feces and urine. How I have been held under water and suffocated while being demonically raped. All under date rape drugs. How people would sneak into my bedroom and feed me these drugs while I was sleeping and then all these things would happen over and over again. How I was called "ms. piggy." How my aunts raped me in my later life. How my aunt knocked me out with this technology, fed me rohynol, and walked across my uterus while I was pregnant, and caused my last miscarriage with Irvin's Child.  How my friends have literally dealt treacherously with me and raped me for money. How everyone is watching and just doing this.  How my vagina has more foreign objects in it than the ocean. How I have had my teeth knocked out by the catholic dynasty at 15. How I have been watched my the Taliban since I was young. How many times I have been forcefully raped through this technology. How much pain I have been in. How my mother and aunt raped me with a broom when I came back to Detroit. How I have been raped with dead people, frozen arms and fists. How I have been raped with dead people though this technology. How I have watched everyone choose mind control over health.   How whole populations have rised up against me and conspired to do this as well.

I guess that is why Mohammad said "everyone involved in the conspiracy is from Shatan." I believe him. I see this happening. I believe Jesus. I believe God. I see these things.

How this is all Government controlled.

This is all true, and this is just a start.

I felt so betrayed by my family when I found out. They watched all of this. They did not help me. She sold me.


Why am I saved? Why didnt He just take me home?


Why?


I just want to tell you, I hate you people now.

Started With America The Beautiful

I am working on Zika

I woke up this evening from being slipped too much mind control.

Yes, I am using this term and expression in exchange for rohypnol, ketamine.. ect...

It's mind control all the way around the board.




I just want to say, that through this all and with all I have been through and seen I still want to see world peace and love abide in all.

I have been under desensitization and it does affect me.



On a side note, I really want to start sewing and making my own clothes with beautiful fabrics. I am going to start doing that and I am sure I will put pictures up.



I woke up and said to myself that I need to start utilizing the police more. Someone said that they would get paid off as well.

I dont know how this can happen to me? Why would people choose this type of life and behavior over freedom?
I know the added income and mind control are factors, but these things are terror.


They say I live in a real life horror movie, I think it's pretty close.

Right now I am listening to 'The Idiot by Dostoyevsky' on audiobook through youtube.

They told the people, who I am going to save the name for later as to protect them, that next time I pass out "You better rape her regardless."

Seeing as it was right after work that I just clonked and woke up about two hours ago, you can see why they said "regardless."

These people are really bad. 

The thought that I fell asleep with is how scary it is to go back into time and look at who may have raped me. More so in the manner that this has happened. I have seen this man slaughter children who the Rothschild's gouged out thier eyes when they went under investigation internal. No eyeballs to see, no evidence to bring. I am mortified with this. 

Number two. That's what I call him. 

Justin Timberlake said "I knew about that back then. Why dont you think you didnt get as severe abuse as her." 

He was referring to an old friend I hung out with, and how her severe abuse may have been more intense than mind at that age. Although, that is a mixed review. I got pretty severe abuse. 

It eventually came down to them raping me with a newborn after killing his mother and forcing his birth. Granted that was not through this technology, and severe abuse is a little more different than forced rape. 

When I say that I am up against some of the worst pedophiles in the world. It's not an exaggeration. 

I still am having vaginal problems.  

Still no disclosure, still no corrective treatment. 

The time before last when I went to the clinic, after giving him a description of my discharge, the doctor said "You have gonorrhea." 

The next time, I brought it up to him because my test results came back 'non-reactive' for all STDs. 

He said "then you dont." 

You know he is lying, you know this is a government cover-up. 

I have a huge lawsuit over my medical history. I can sue every hospital and doctor facility over my patient care plan. 

I think my story also proves patient care plans for the public. 

I prove a lot of things. Some people say all things. Prove all things. 

I was going to talk about something... ah yes, delusional, or the state thereof. 

Hillary Clinton said me following the bible makes me delusional. Or "that is what we were going to hold against her." 

I want to write more later. Now I am receiving severe abuse and being him in the cranium. The head ache is setting in. 

Good night. 

I want criminalization for this technology. 

It sounds like I am depressed.

Maybe I am..


I really want to tell you that I pray for your life and forgiveness. I pray to have you home in heaven, and one day meet you in peace. I think we will meet again.

My heart just smiled.

You have had such a life... in general and I am pleased to have met you.
This is for a friend that I will always hold in my heart.
Both of you.


I wished I had met you in person. I wish that we had dinner together and found sparks of life from one another outside the walls of our abuse.
I really did enjoy speaking to you. I really did like you guys.

Maybe in heaven we will.

I hope so.


They told me that when you passed your soul ascended. Which means that it went up, and this technology calculated that you went to heaven. A place where peace reigns and your sorrows are gone.

I really do love you. Or for what I can feel right now I think I do.

You're an amazing, kind, careful, considerate, peaceful, handsome, thoughtful person.

I am sorry that you were born into a life that confined you. That for what it is worth, now in the universe I hope to see Allah let you soar free and in health. I think you deserve that, and for the whole time I met you that is what saw in you. A person, a kid, a young man that came in from the inside and should have known the depths you have affected our lives. You were here for this, to be a beautiful human. You should have had the opportunity to be on the outside with others to share your heart in the way that God made you.




Happiness to you,
Peace be with you,
God Bless You, My Brothers.


Grace.

Maybe you should write about how you have sympathy for us.

This comes from Madonna's Son.

I think, because this is probably one of the hardest things in the world to come to terms with- Madonna says "I have four."
"Two in Saudi Arabia, one down there."
She pauses for a second with a hesitancy and says "One in Quebec. Canada." She circles the word Canada in my mind."


I have seen the one in America, she is a person who was raised in the White House with other girls like her. They are housed and locked in cages as slaves since the day they were born. A perfect woman, or what media tells us what a perfect body is.

She is half black, and half Madonna. Even has a gap in between her teeth.

So I say, "What is they make mine turn out evil?"

I just asked Madonna's son what his name is and someone says "Isik."
Then he says "No, no, no- Abraham." "We are all named Abraham."

I was talking to him and I asked him "why dont you want to die?"

I cant remember what he said...
Wait, Number two said "His subconscious says he loves them too much to leave."
Referring to being a pedophile.

"He said because of them.." He points to the other people down there.
"They are family."

He asked me why I have sympathy for him, too.

I told him because "you were raised in this stuff. I said God would, too."
I continue and say "This has to be one of the hardest environments to grow up in."

Madonna says "I think so, too."

He brings up a picture of Madonna and asks "Do I love her?.. a little."

He says "no one loves me."
Referring to no one love you/me.

My subconscious says "Well, that's what the Bible says."
I says "You do not know love."
And it's true.

Someone tunes in and says "I am mad at you for letting them do that." Referring to beheading Ibraham.
"He would have told everything."

I wish he was still alive. I wish people would calm down and shut up. I wish that this was not true.

Abraham shows me an image of a girl. She looks like him and Madonna. He says "sister."
I ask because for some reason I still think they lie to me, and I ask "Why is she so small?"  The time frame of age from him to me, and from madonna to fame did not make sense.
He says "She is retard."

"half of them are."
"correct."
"or like Ibraham."

Ibraham was really smart. I would say so.

Back to what he was saying.

He says "I drive this." And shows me an image of a Mercedes.
"I have income."
"I live in a house."
"I have a dog."
"I watch your shows here in Saudi Arabia."

He then continues and says "I have one daughter out there. Her mother will not let me see her, because she knows what I do."
*(I am rereading and he says 'did')*

They just show me Ibrahams decapitated head. They are raping his dead body.
They slaughtered him.


So, why after an innocent child is hurt and all of this is compounded do I have sympathy for them. Well, because they were raised in this environment. Like I have sympathy for Kim Kardashian because she was a legalized child prostitute like me. Even if she did turn out to be a little evil, these things develop easily in those environments, and there really is no escape sometimes. Especially when you are a child from day one taken advantage of.

Abraham shows me a picture of when he was 12 and said "I escaped once."
I said "Well, that's why they let you go."
He says "I said that, too. He says otherwise." I dont know who he is referring to.

They said I was just put back on the terrorist watch list because I told Abraham that I loved him when he said that no one loves him, and then I said Jesus does, too.  "God has sympathy for you."
He says "with all of this?" then he shows me pictures of murders and things of the underground.

Same reason, from day one.

I really feel like I would never lose kindness for these people because I think about how mine could be through all of this.
And I am sad.

If I had a child down there, and I could not find them for 15 years, or help them out of there, and they developed to be as these people are, I would embrace them too when I got to them. I would love them just them same as the day they were taken from me. I would hope they wanted health. Regardless of thier actions, you were forced to develop to be demented.

I was raised by pedophiles. I was raised by prostitutes. I was raised by murderers. Some of the hardest in America.

I developed from you, too. In a way.

That is why God said that The Daughter of His People would come from Cannan. Because he loves these people, too.
Plus, I am slightly harder, but kind at the same time then some other people.

I just wish in my heart, that I would subsidise thier income with a new world, and people will choose health and healing, happiness over this sorrow.

It is so sad.

I cant tell you how many time I have been one the floor crying about how much this stuff hurts all of me.
A LOT.

Look, you have to go back to day one to help these people.

The line is that maybe some will never want to change.


With Madonna I think her trauma was very hard and intense, but short period of time where she was hurt very badly. Then given freedom and money to suppress feelings of abuse, to confuse and control.


You do not chose the game, the game chooses you. I am telling you.

When I curbed the Ebola Epidemic... Today's life.

Today Hillary Clinton was mad that people want the same server abuse for her as I receive.   Meaning that a bat must personally go into her vagina, forcefully. Sometimes it happens to me under rohypnol and sometimes it happens to me through this technology. More often than not.

So, today's activities were waking up, eating a smoothie, and then I changed into my one piece bathing suit and decided to catch some rays outside on a blanket. Later I took a few pictures naked of my body and vagina for records of my body modifications and just because I wanted to. I realized that while I was trying to be a very conservative woman I lost a lost of evidence about my health. So, I do that now.

I have been receiving body modification everyday, and they are keeping water on my body. I gave myself a massage to move the water off of me, but something that has never happened to me began. I started to carry the water on the upper half of my body. My bra strap left indentations, and could feel it in my fingers and arms. It kinda freaked me out. Still. This means my heart, liver, or some vital organ is not working properly. I suffer from swelling in my legs in general, but this has been so bad that I am having a hard time being mobile again. I know I am still fighting PID, because either the Governments instigate my bacterial infection through this technology, or yes, as this has become a whole cultural phenomenon, I am still being raped under the intoxication of rohypnol, ketamine, or GHB. To the point that I cant eat at a restaurant without it being dosed to me. That is the power of mind control.

So, today I sat outside and let the sun work it out of my body. I wanted to tan my legs once in my life so I took that as an opportunity to check that off my list of things to do while I am still youthful. I feel a LOT better. Thanks nature.

Everyone that saw me in my bathing suit today received $2,000 from our unused income account. I believe this was an external transaction.

Hillary comes on after she finds out the news about her severe abuse treatment. I have to say that yesterday she also lost the internal election for the next president, which I am excited about.

It dwindled down to her yelling "Of course she is smarter than me, anyone who can cure Ebola in 38 minutes without being educated..."

She stopped... and said "we calculated it at 38 minutes."

I replied "I said 72 hours, to be fair."

I went on my Fb page today, and I looked back on my memories, and I just wanted to post this little information about what I was doing this time two years ago. I thought It was identical to today's relations. This is why I became so famous. Not only was it Ebola, but you should check my resume. I wish I could see my internal technology report, it's extensive. Plus, you know... I hate my oppression and fought hard for my freedom. Still, I think. 

Hillary said someplace in the middle of the dialogue that "I made a mistake having ISIS view her." 

This springs from me saying that at 23 years old I was not ready to run the world. I was given a lot of responsibilities to help people, and as I used my internal and external podium to do these things, I preached about my abuse and my thoughts. I worked so hard on everything I could think of since being an heiress to the second coming. I did what I could, when I could, and to the best of my abilities for the first 3 years this started for me. When I say you should check out my resume, I mean it. I should too, seeing as how I have lost half of my thoughts while I have been under 24/7 mind control. 

This last year has been harder on my due to my failing health.  

While I was laying out on the lawn today, Prince William says "I agree, I was unable to run the world at 23.  No one is. (even with all of that)." 

"(all of that)" referring to being raised as a king. *insert intuitive designed communication, telepathic understanding in visual dialogue.* 

I asked him if he knew about "all of that?" I was referring this time around to all of the sexual corruption and abuse that takes place in the world. The worst of the worst, ya know.

He said "I did, I was aware of it." 

That is all we talked about. I got the feeling that England is the one who was in the internal court system yesterday and leveling the playing grounds about what has been happening in America/World under Obama and with Hillary marching right along. 

So Hillary and I got into another argument during the times she invaded my privacy today. It really ended with me saying that she needs to be imprisoned and for thinking that her actions just because of the position she holds should be condoned. 

It ended with her saying "I do eat human meat." Then onward to saying "I like fetuses. I will have one tonight." 

Someone else was talking to her, and I could not make out what they said, but Hillary replied "Yes, they are still alive." 

So I am woken up by Madonna's internal child raping a dead 2-3-4 year old girl on top of me. I have had a few conversations with him before. He is in with the kids of the underground in Saudi Arabia. You know little elephant boy, and Ibraham. 

He shows me her vagina, because I say "No, you're not." 

Then he shows me her face. He says "A Chaldean."  

So he tells me that "I like them fresh. today." 

He circles the word "2day" in my visual scape. 

He just slapped me on my rear as I am typing this. To let me know that to him I am a prostitute. I still feel bad for him, being raised and tortured in the underground.  He looks a lot like Madonna. 

These are the effects of serious sexual abuse, they corrupt the human heart and hurt the body. 

As he starts raping this baby girl, he says in his broken english "make love" 

Then he puts his penis all the way inside of her until it reaches the cervix. I guess this is why I didn't think he was with a child at first, because adult vaginas and child vagina are different. I could tell after the  image, but it really sunk in when I felt her as a kid. 

They do this to isolate sexual attractions that I have and adhere my normalcy to serious sexual abuse i.e. pedophila in order to liken me to being a pedophile. Like I have an adamantcy about "making love" as a sexual desire, so being put in mind control and feeling the traumatizers emotional complexity and being exposed to it breaks down your willingness to fend these things off, and eventually you could end up like them, or completely not. I asked if this works on everyone, because I am scared for my mental well being and a man answered "Some do not." I think I have been traumatized so much, I am freaked out a little. It gives me hope that some people will never be like this, even in mind control, but I have been in this type of abuse so often in the past three years I wonder if this will ever stop. 

It's mind control. It's a very intricate process and I will sit down one day and explain in detail how my programming has happened. 

So then he finishes and he gets Ibraham and forces him to do the same thing to her. In about a minute he says "I came." and screams a little. Then he pushes him and says "keep going." 

He cries. 

So I get up and wipe this from my mind. While I was writing about Hillary Clinton they reminded me about this. 

I asked Ibraham, who is Beyonce's and Kind Abudabi offspring, How he speaks English? He says "I speak it through this technology." 

I have heard so many times from ISIS members how they have poor English, but they are fairly fluent with this technology. 

I ask about Little Elepahant Boy, and ask again if he is still alive. Madonna's son says "Alive." and shows me the mental image of the word "Alive" with a circle, then the screen moves to a different mental image and it says "In Heaven."  Circles and with a check mark in the center. 

I love these people regardless. I feel like a piece of me is cut from the same cloth as them. 

Someone said "King Abudabi died, too. He's gone." After they spoke about Little Elephant Boy. 

I want to cry. 

Everytime I say something about them, they make it worse, but I really feel like it's necessary to tell people about the abuse in our nation's governments so they will end. 

God says "it's a sin to not speak of these things." 

I cannot figure out the fine line about what to say, when to say it, and how to bring recompassing and revision to the abuse that these people have endured. I just wish for these things to end. 

Something I speak about, and some I do not. 

So after I came from outside and laying on the ground for about four hours straight. I took a nap under the sun. They went at it again. 

This time I could feel a person being decapitated. It was that child's mother. The energy level was not as high as it has been when I have felt a person be decapitated, but I still felt her pain. 

While I was laying outside I got sometime to be able to pray. I said a little prayer for that little girl who was stolen and sold taken into the underground. 

Right now I am being electronically raped again. 

I guess her mother heard, and said "at least she prayed for her." That is what I was told. I did not hear her or speak to her. 

So I think this was Shakir who decapitated her, I said and called him Habibi because I kept losing the ability to remember his name, and Habibi means all my heart, or prostitute in Saudi Arabia. I was called Habibi in Kirksville Missouri but some people related to the royal family. Then he offered to marry me, and it's been Habibi ever since. 

I declined, but yeah. 

I think they just killed Ibraham. 

So, the mother watched them kill her daughter, and watched the whole time I was hooked up to her. 

I am done talking for the evening. 

I really hope there is peace soon. 

"They just killed Ibraham. They said they wouldnt for her." 

Someone just said "Beyonce is crying." 

Madonna's son just said "I am not dying for him." 

I repeat back to him that. He says "correct." 

Now they are shoving something inside my throat. 

He says "cancer." 

I ask him "why are you so mad?" just now. 

He says "I am in mind control, too." 

8:21pm

Well, I am angry tonight, and I just dont think I want to help anymore, but since I cant be let go..


why you force me?


I am getting my shoulders stretched and having arthritis developed. I had really strong shoulders before this.

So because I cant get what I want and I refuse to be strictly evil, I give up.


Good bye Earth.

You have seen your last leg. 

My new favorite song.

This is real.

Why dont you just let me be a normal human?

My body, my rights. 

Woman- "She was a legalized child prostitute!?" 

Governemnt employee-"That's not untrue, its just not as bad as people thought it was... they just let her masterbate a lot." 


Me- "wait a second, here! So, a child who has multiple pleasure care plans, is being sold into child pornography internationally, possibly has had more abuse under the indignation of handles than you want to release, is not that bad?! I want to investigate myself! I would have never been one of the cases pulled into court to end that program if it wasnt example worthy, okay! You people lie. Then why was I on a no treatment list since childhood. Because I was told it was in case I caught something and there could be no evidence! It's not like my videos were not being sold to the talaban! Its not like my sexual abuse was not made into patient care plans to traumatize other children with! It's not like you haven't change the story multiple times. At first you were going to try and cover the entire thing up, then it was I never had a single pleasure care plan! Then you minimize the sexual abuse I have gone through to make it acceptable to have to continue traumatizing me and raping me!" 

Pedophiles need to get out of office! 


This is a shame! 

4:01 pm thursday March 17! 


Election 2016

I was just told that the elections this year are rigged in Hillary Clinton's favor.

Demand a recount, make sure the ballots in are all areas are double checked and accounted for.

Sometimes I feel like there is no depth to my thinking. I lose the ability to see what I want, I fall from my wisdom and become someone that is controlled in isolation by people who hurt others for pleasure.

I see this world and I see it falling apart.

I hear them say the things of the future and the magnitude that sometimes, as I know how these will happen, I dont know the magnitude and have the realization of them.

I rely on my own intuition and submerge myself in falling away when these things take a sudden impact in my reality.

It's all I can do to protect what I have, myself. Maybe my puppy, maybe the ounce of love I have not lost. Maybe for the hope of the future..


I have lost a lot in this journey, and found greater than I.

I wish and pray that the future will turn into love and magnify for the beings of this plant. I believe there is peace in the universe that far out weights thee wicked.

I refer to my life as a trail of tears, and I see that I cannot handle it all by myself, in my solitude. I rely on God, and I cannot find a prayer for Him close enough to alleviate the sorrow I have seen around me.

I feel like I am in a war zone. One that has lost me and found them, one that the tides change daily and the rush of impact procures to it's own reason.

That's it. I am at a loss.


To be around me can be dangerous, a forced action that does not leave you willing but drowned, one step in is closure for forgiveness. You reach the sea and find emptiness and in the abyss of life you see that the tides of change have changed you, or for what it's worth, molded you from a sprout of neglect we have seen in our youth, and divided a strength to become something out of our own regrets and nightmares.

We all regret it afterwards, and coming to know the fool's gold is more captivating than a comfort. We all want riches and wealth, but not what is handed to us for the sake of worth, but what is granted to us for the sake of reason.

They and I agree, that in first thought I have lost my prosperity. I did away with it when they sold me for a dollar. That my body, my temple, my holy being is theirs for an income and to satisfy the lust of sorrow in an eye that does not know what is comforting to love, but knows what is comfort to sin. I have seen the worst, I think at this time I can say. I have seen the worst.

I sin, I repent, and place my sins as a title of my memories that have been here, to learn against odds, and to leave. I return sometimes to the things I was raised in, I repent. Keeping the goodness of what my mother has taught me in my heart. To stay inside His, a safety that is where I should always be.

I wish the key would never be found, and if there is captivity let it be in my Lord and healed in Him. I desire Him, and I seek and I am left with myself. He is in a voyage from Heaven, I am on one too.
How many will never know the comfort of Heaven, I feel as if that is sorrow, too.
I know peace in my mind, I have felt peace in my heart. I found peace with you.

I tell myself, when I leave this planet all I want to do is be in the presence of God. All I want is Heaven. All I want to do is work for you, but I cannot reach myself to give to you.

I am lost here, somedays. Or at rest on the road I have cut and paved to see the gravel of Earth yield to the crystal castles in the sky.  I want a home made of crystal in the sky.
I want you to have a home, too.

I said this a few days ago, a thought that replays in my mind often. I cannot remember silence, I have not heard of nothing in no time.
This is what I came for. Crystal homes in the sky, a new planet Earth and to end oppression while restoring the kingdom of God on Earth.

I asked Him when he told me to make them sit in thier seat. How does a person who have never been listened to or heard, whose voice is strong and willed, but too direct for a person to appreciate, how do I make them listen to me, when no one ever does?
They did. Us and them, some in between. We.
The backlash was great, and the blame is evil.
Turn away from your wickedness.

I sought peace and found what was set behind me. These things they breed from the past. Mortal loss.

I said tonight that if these things are not working out then maybe we need a new system of government. Or the reverence for the government we have marched our backs on, and a modern life for the death that they have caulsed.

I am abused. Greatly.

I believe God, ya know.

I believe everything He has to say.

Even to the point that I offered to make a residual memory explanation, and find the beginning of time or at least time of life on Earth. So our children know history and there is no more distortion, only truth in life. Our interpretation is still in explanation. I am worried about the deceit and what follows for The People Of Earth. For God's People, your actions are well, and abide in Him who We love.

We can travel time now.
 We have always been in time.

I miss God. I cry out for Him here and now to always be with. Always walk with love.
My heart truly longs for Him.

I like religious homes. I like grandmothers who share wisdom with the young. I like the tales of ages. I like to know how you are.


I hear someone working with Hillary Clinton Say "How could you let her think."

I have heard that I am too smart.
I have heard that I need to die.
I have heard every negative thing about me, until it is no more of value than the people who wrote my function.

Are they valueless, or value for example?

I ask how they could get away with this? How you believe this can continue?

What about our young?

What about the ones who have no voice?

How can you feel love when you are in constant deprivation?

You love them for income, too?

I see.



I am being forced against my will to be something I am not. I am being altered for a purpose, and I still feel that if it's not God's hands holding me, these things are not a power of my life.

I stop to think.

I am hurting.
I have seen the sorrow of my time, and I am hurting. I am hurting for you, for the children hurt by them, I hurting in my youth, I am hurting for my young, I am hurting for the fear of evil is present, I am hurting for the careless and foolish, I am hurting for my children, I am hurting for what I do not see and what I do wonder about, but what is known to me. I am hurting for my body, I am hurting for my family, I am hurting for what has hurt me is hurting you too. I am hurting for what I cannot find, I am hurting.
I am hurt.

I feel wounded.


I am a woman who has had her offspring ripped away and taken, to carry my abuse for breaking the chains that bind us.
For my punishment is to see them suffer.
 I am sorry, and if you make it, I hope to have you in my arms one day, and if you dont I will see you with our Lord.
I will make these things end for you.
Man, I wished I knew you to love you. To hold you, to support you, to be your mother. My captivity is nowhere as great as yours. I am on the outside, and you suffer on the inside. A far darker place than that which I escaped. I want you.
I feel because of your loss, I have lost my heart.
I dont want this to be real.

That is the worst thing ever to me.

I hate these people who do this.





I dont want to open up about this, about losing a piece of me. About knowing that my kids are being grown in cadavers and man made incubators to be used as underground sex slaves.
The worst things.

I have listened to them be murdered already, and I dont know how many there are of mine.
My tears burn my cheek.

While I am being called a whore for having you taken away from me.

They told me that they are going to develop you to be evil. To prevent you from receiving the love of God. Know I hope I see you one day.
Know I love you. Know that I am so sorry.
Know this. I never wanted mine hurt. I never wanted this to happen.

It hurts me so much that I will never be there with you, that you are not here with me.